Potato & Onion Frittata

Yumsters!  I rocked this frittata!  I was home & hungry for a yummy breakfast. I was too lazy to get ready & go buy something. I also really didn't want to spend the money. 

I looked for a recipe that included eggs & potatoes (ingredients that I had & was craving) and found this one. I was afraid to attempt it at first because it would involve a step I've never used before (broiling) and I would have to change one of the ingredients from fresh parsely to frozen basil cubes. 

I did it anyway & it worked!  So yummy!  I have a few more ideas for this recipe & I'm excited for my next attempt. 

Work

Work is going pretty well right now. I am being recommended for  committees, councils, and projects. Through all of this involvement I am meeting tons of senior managers that hopefully will one day make a hiring decision in my favor.  I'm very excited & I almost am afraid to say it out loud just in case it doesn't happen. 

My friend "Dy" told me last night that I need to change my attitude / outlook from "hopefully it will happen" to "It will happen". She's so right because I do believe in the law of attraction. You attract what you put out there.

Anyhow, I just wanted to record this moment with you.  I will keep you updated. :-)

Blah

I was on such a career high all day so I'm perplexed as to why I'm feeling blah right now. Is it being indoors? I took a walk to buy dinner for that reason but it didn't help. Dinner actually made my stomach feel like my brain... Blah.

It's 7pm and I'm already in bed. Not good.  I don't even have the energy to tell you why I was on such a happy high. 

I almost feel like I'm missing someone. But who? There's this ache I'm feeling and I can't pinpoint why I'm feeling it. 

Is it loneliness? Maybe. Oh man, I really need to get out of this funk because that's when I'm the most unproductive. 

I need to watch Oprah's Master Class and get inspired. :-)

I need to get out more

This last week I went out with a friend.  I went with no expectations & ended up having a great time. I also met two guys who were pretty cool. 

That night made me realize that I need to get out more & be open to all possibilities.  

I'm finally coming out of my hole. :-)

Good Times

I had such a great time with Marlin last night! I really need to get out more. All I do lately is hang out at home.

Going Crazy

I decided to do the Detox diet again. This time I had my two sisters & a coworker doing it with me. I was excited because I thought it would be so much easier the second time around.  

I was so wrong. The detox coincided with my period and really made the process so much harder.  On my first day I had a major headache. It almost felt like a migraine. I didn't take any medicine because I hoped it would only last one day.  

Today, my second day, the headache was gone in the morning but boy did it come back.  I decided to take Motrin rather than completely breaking the detox.  I took four Motrins and my headache did not improve. By the end of the day I was going crazy. I was thinking of what I could go eat. I was craving everything! Coffee, sandwich, hamburger, fish, chicken salad, candy....  I was going to sneak away from work to go eat but I was held up by employees needing stuff. I'm glad that happened because who knows what I would have ate.

On the way home I had an apple. Still no improvement. My mouth was watering at the idea of making tuna with crackers for dinner when my friend showed up.  I told him how miserable I was & he was very supportive of me postponing my detox.

I ended up eating a pretzel with mustard (we went to the movies) and lemonade. Got home & I had a small piece of brownie, some cookies, and coffee.  That's when my stomach said "WTF?"  

I'm drinking my detox tea right now. I'm not feeling crazy anymore & the headache is almost gone.  I'm thinking of getting back on the detox tomorrow. If I can get through it without a headache I should be fine but if the headache comes back then I'm off it for sure. We shall see what happens.

Nighty night.....

Past meals a.k.a Badges

Huevos Rancheros with Black Beans

Toluca Style Chorizo & Egg with Black Beans

:-) = me cooking

Salmon in Mole Sauce with Traditional Latin Rice

Dinner is the most difficult meal of the day for me.  There are so many options I get frustrated sometimes.

I was at that point this evening. I wanted to try cooking something new but I couldn't figure it out. Every recipe I looked at I was missing at least one ingredient. **Wish my kitchen could be stocked like Martha Stewart's!** I soon went from hungry to starving and was so close to snacking away for dinner.

Thankfully I opened a cupboard and saw the mole sauce. The light bulb turned on and I ended up with a yummy dinner. No recipe used! :-) I also have enough left over for lunch tomorrow.  

This was so easy that breaking it down to a recipe is ridiculous.  I simply followed the mole sauce (store bought) instructions and added salmon instead of traditional chicken.  It was so yummy!

The Latin rice does have a recipe but also very easy. 

Ingredients
1 cup of white rice
1 1/2 - 2 cups of water (I find that 2 cups of water can leave your rice very mushy and I do not like mushy rice.)
1/2 - 1 tbsp. (or to taste) of powdered Knorr Chicken Flavor Bouillon
Frozen veggies to taste
1 tbsp. of vegetable oil

Prep
Add oil to medium sized pot on medium/high heat.  Add rice and fry, stirring frequently, for about 5 minutes. Rice will change color to a very light brown.  Add water and chicken bouillon, stir.  Taste water for flavor and add more bouillon if necessary.  Add frozen veggies, stir, cover pot, lower flame and simmer until water evaporates, about 10 minutes. Enjoy!



:-) = a happy tummy

Xoxo

Veggie Scramble

I have to admit that breakfast is my favorite meal of the day.  I love cooking it as well as eating it.

This morning I made a scramble with red & yellow peppers, ancho chile, & onion.  I added pieces of a veggie sausage patty. Yum!

Cooking, cooking, cooking!

I'm having so much fun cooking! I'm finally feeling brave enough to cook and I'm thoroughly enjoying it. I especially feel accomplished when I cook a traditional Mexican/Latin dish. I told some of my friends that I almost feel like a Girl Scout who is earning her badges.

Several weeks ago I got the Bean Badge. I cooked them from scratch and days later I blended them to make re-fried beans.

I also earned the Beef Fajitas Badge although those were reeeeally easy and aren't traditionally Mexican.

Today I earned the Huevos Rancheros Badge. Yummy and yaay! I've had the recipe on my fridge for a while and was scared to try it but my ex-boss convinced me it was okay to change up the recipe the way I was thinking about doing it. So I did it and it was awesome! Just like my momma's!

The next badge I will work to get is the Chilaquiles Badge. I'm also working on the Rice Badge but that's a work in progress. :-) I made rice when I made the beans but I think the rice could've been better so I will make another attempt.

I have cooked other foods but they've been too easy and I can't consider them as badges earned. Not that the badges above were really hard to earn but I think that latin dishes are so much more intimidating. You have have a specific memory as to how it should taste and any variation is not good enough - a failure.

So when I cook pasta, fish, or steak in modern American fashion I feel like they don't count towards my badges. I know, I'm being dumb. lol....

The only con I can think of to all of this cooking is the dirty dishes. What a drag.... :-)

God of Grace and God of Glory: Grant us wisdom, grant us courage, for the facing of this hour.

I'm reading George W. Bush's memoir.  I'll explain later why I decided to read his book.  But first....

I'm currently on the chapter about September 11th 2001.  Reading about the events of that day and his reaction (which mirrored what many of us felt) brought me to tears. Wow, didn't expect those emotions to still feel so fresh.  

In the chapter he mentions the above prayer and I really liked it. It can really help you through a tough moment.

Xoxo
Me

... (dot dot dot)

So how would you interpret the ...? In a text, in a email, in person?  

My friend says he uses it as a pause between thoughts. I say bull shit. That's what normal punctution is for. Periods, commas, and exclamation points.

My other friend says she takes it as attitude given at the end of each sentence.  I disagreed with her at first but after reading my guy friend's email response to a girl I have to agree with the attitude part. 

A girl emails him with (I'm paraphrasing) "OMG I had so much fun at the concert and it's sooooo unforgettable." His response was "Hey, yeah that was a great concert... Thanks for emailing me..."
OMG!!! How funny!  Total attitude! I'll admit that the girl deserved the attitude but it was still interesting to see the ... from a different perspective. :-)

Xoxo...

Clearing the Air Out

I had another annoying dream last night.  I know why I dreamt it but how to fix it?  You see, I believe this person I'm dreaming about thinks I'm very angry with them & I'm not.  Not anymore... :-)  I sometimes wish I will I run in to this person somewhere and I can tell them so myself. This is not likely though so I shall just let time pass.

This person along with certain songs on my iPod got me thinking this morning.  Who else from my past thinks I still hold a grudge or anger towards them?  I can think of a few.  I sat still and meditated about it. Am I still angry at them? I thought about the bad memories that caused our friendships to end and I felt something wonderful.  Peace.  I was at peace thinking about bad memories because I knew we were all young and stupid.  Then I started remembering the good moments. So my answer was no. I had no bad feelings for them.

The idea of writing to them came to my mind.  I don't have any bad feelings towards them and I do remember how beautiful or fun our friendship used to be. I do not intend to rekindle old friendships but I just want to clear the air out and tell them that I wish them well in life.  I will apologize for any bad actions or words that may have come from me in the past.  Then tell them that there's no anger or resentment from me and that I hope for the same from them too.  

Some of my current friends may think I'm trying too hard or just wasting my time. The past is the past.  But I feel life is about learning and I've learned so much. One thing I learned I read in my prayer book.  If I expect to be forgiven then I must also forgive just as easily.  But I can't just preach it, I have to practice it.  

Who knows, these old friends may not care for me or how I feel anymore and that's okay.  The important thing is that they will know I hold no bad feelings towards them.  There's a little bit less of bad energy out in the world. <3

Xxoo....

I Wonder If.....

I believe I have a special gift. My entire life I have noticed if I'm thinking about someone a lot and I call them (or sometimes they call me & beat me to the punch) they will always be surprised and tell me they were thinking about me too.  

In the beginning I would just brush it off as a coincidence but now I truly believe it's more than that.  

I decided to test my gift today. I was thinking about a friend who I haven't seen or talked to in a long time. There's no special date or reason that would normally make me think about them.  So I spent half of my drive home from work thinking about this friend and the good ol' days. Once I got home I texted my friend and said I was thinking of them.

My friend's response?  "OMG!!! I've been thinking about you too!!!"

Now you may think it's my friend's powerful thinking influencing me but I cannot agree.  This has happened with almost all my friends. Since I'm the common denominator I figure it's me. :-)  

So anyway................ All of this explaining to preface this question........

I wonder if a certain someone is thinking about me since I can't freakin stop thinking about them. :-/  I hope so. The thought makes me feel less retarded. :-)

Xoxo.......

Too Good To Be True?

I'm sitting at my desk looking out the windows and thinking how happy I am. I can't believe I live in a great apartment, in a great neighborhood, with everything I've dreamed of. Really, EVERYTHING. I feel so at peace right now it scares me to think I might be taking this for granted. My heart is fluttering with happiness for my home.

Dear God, thank you for all the blessings in my life right now. My home, my family, the good health of my family and friends, and my job.

What a gorgeous turbulent day. It's cold at 50 degrees, the wind is pretty strong and making the day more cold, the sky is filled with puffy clouds that do not cover everything so you also get to enjoy the beautiful blue and sun. They say a thunderstorm is on the way and I'm quite curious to what the energy in storm will bring. I look to my left and I see blue skies and then I look straight ahead and see the onimous dark gray clouds. Cool...

Quiet - peace and quiet. It's just me and my heart right now. Can we pause time so I can enjoy this more? Is this what meditation is all about? I can do the meditation thing any day from this corner of my world.

Adios empty space.

xoxo...

My First Step

Yaay!

About 15 minutes ago I took my first step towards my personal legend. I admit I'm a little afraid of rejection but deep down inside I know I can kick ass with this. I requested an application from LACMA to become a Docent volunteer. I'm excited! An art history background is not required. They train you for an entire year in art history before you start giving tours. AMAZEBALLS!!!

Of course you have to apply and go through an interview process but I know I can do this. While browsing LACMA's website I was reading about their other councils and was so intrigued! I haven't felt this way in a long time.

I really want this and will work so hard to get there.


Afraid, excited, intrigued, and challenged. I'm loving this. :-)

FB Drama Update

So my friend apologized and asked that I try to understand. All I could say in response was that I respect the decision. And I do respect it. I might not agree with it but I will respect it.

Anyhow, my friend wants to hang out and to be honest so would I. As I said before, we used to be very good friends. I would love to spend some time to catch up.

So the initial anger is gone. All I can do is to continue what I always try to do. That is, all I can do is just live in each moment and be open to the changes that come my way and hopefully handle each challenge with a little more grace.

Who said I was perfect? lol........

xoxo,
Me

FB Drama

Grrrrrr.... Really? Is it really necessary? Geez!

So I recently found a high school friend on FB. I was so excited because we were really good friends back in those days.

Anyhow it's been 15 years and obviously a lot has changed since then. I get it. I know. No need to spell it out for me because I have changed too. To be frank, who hasn't changed?

It started with something stupid I did. In the middle of my excitement, due to finding this friend on FB, I tagged this friend on a lot of my high school pics that I have uploaded on FB. I then message this friend and basically say "I hope you're okay with my tagging you." I should have asked if it was okay prior to tagging. Lesson learned. Unfortunately it wasn't okay and I respect that but did this friend really have to delete me from their friends list? Really? Was it really necessary?

Yes, this has upset me but I will choose to look at this in a positive light. This little piece of FB drama was a flash back to typical middle school / high school drama. Not typical of what I knew of this friend but just typical. I realized this friend has issues that are beyond me that I cannot understand (nor will I try to) but I will respect. Anyhow, everyday I work to keep unnecessary complications / drama far away from my life. I don't need this type of complication from anyone; therefore, THANK YOU FOR DELETING ME and have a nice life. I will always keep those wonderful HS memories of our friendship near.

Lots of love,
Me

Agape Singles Event

Why am I at a singles event and blogging?  Hahahaha...

Xoxoxo

The Fear of Failure (The Alchemist)

"Don't give in to your fears," said the alchemist, in a strangely gentle voice. "If you do, you won't be able to talk to your heart."

"If a person is living out his Personal Legend, he knows everything he needs to know. There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure."

I have always known that I have a huge fear of failure and that it has made me who I am today. I've lied to myself by thinking that acting on my fear was a good thing but I just now realized that it isn't. Because I have reacted to fear all my life I am now unhappy with a certain part of my life. Maybe more than one part...

How can I change this? It's ingrained in me, "better safe than sorry!".

Man, I have some work to do... :-)

Listening To Your Heart (The Alchemist)

"Everyone on earth has a treasure that awaits them. We, people's hearts, seldom say much about those treasures, because people no longer want to go in search of them. We speak of them only to children. Later, we simply let life proceed, in it's own direction, towards it's own fate. BUT, UNFORTUNATELY, VERY FEW FOLLOW THE PATH LAID OUT FOR THEM---THE PATH TO THEIR PERSONAL LEGENDS, AND TO HAPPINESS. Most people see the world as a threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns out, indeed, to be a threatening place."

When we're on the path to realizing our dreams...

"Every search begins with beginner's luck. And every search ends with the victor's being severely tested." or "The darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn."

All of this made think about a life dream I had. I didn't follow my Personal Legend because I was afraid to and what I had at the time was easy for me. Now I can't stop thinking about it.

:-/  

The Alchemist, cont...

Maybe I was wrong to be upset? Maybe I wasn't being supportive enough? Like my last post said, if someone truly cares they will accompany us in our journey. What I am just now understanding is that you don't have to physically accompany someone in their journey. Being supportive of the journey is just as good.

Or maybe I was right for both of us?

"The boy felt jealous of the freedom of the wind, and saw that he could have the same freedom. There was nothing to hold him back except himself. The sheep, the merchant's daughter, and the fields of Andalusia were only steps along the way to his Personal Legend."

I was just a step and I should understand that because he was also a step for me. Yes it hurt for a bit, but to know that we're each others step in our own quest for our Personal Legend gives me comfort.

The Alchemist

I have decided to read the book again. I first read The Alchemist over five years ago. One of the many special things about the book is that you end up reading it at just the right time in your life. That was the case then and it's the case today. 

The book is so inspiring and comforting in the simplist of ways. There are no complicated thoughts, sentences, or words to figure out. It's 167 pages are life changing. I haven't even started the actual story and I'm already moved by something Paulo wrote in his preface.  

"If we have the courage to disinter dream, we are then faced by the second obstacle: love. We know what we want to do, but are afraid of hurting those around us by abandoning everything in order to pursue our dream. We do not realize that love is just a further impetus, not something that will prevent us from going forward. We do not realize that those who genuinely wish us well want us to be happy and are prepared to accompany us on that journey."

- Paulo Coelho

Some people just don't understand this and so they distance themselves from loved ones to "protect" them.  In the end they hurt themselves and their loved ones.  

Anyhow, my posts today will be focused around this great book and the author.

Xoxoxoxo........

axelhoney

Tonight I'm at an art show & I found a new artist that I love. Her name is axelhoney & she does water colors among so many other things.  I bought one of her prints which will go on my wall. 

Check her out!
www.axelhoney.com

I luv the arts!

Xoxoxoxo....

Akasha

One of my favorite restaurants in Culver City!  I really enjoy this place & so does my friend Dimitri. It's becoming our regular spot. :-)

He's really fun to have dinner with because he always orders EVERYTHING on the menu.  Right now he just finished ordering the whole right side of the menu. Hahaha....

Okay, time to focus back on dinner & chatting with him.

Cheers!

Dinner With Dy

I have a really good friend named Sandy.  She's about 30 yrs older than me but we really connect.  

A funny thing about her is that she doesn't like it when people call me Sandy. She always says "But you're Dra and I'm Dy!"  Hahahaha.... 

I LOVE this lady so much! Every now and then we splurge & go out for dinner and we talk for hours. Tonight was such a night. She wanted to celebrate my birthday since we hadn't seen each other in a long time.  Long time for us is a couple of months...maybe three.  We met at Lago, an Italian restaurant on the promenade.  

After dinner we saw a very attractive sign outside of Banana Repuplic that said "50% Off" and we couldn't resist walking in.  I am very happy with my two new sweaters & tshirt. Yaay!  

I had a wonderful evening with Dy but that's nothing new. <3

Xoxoxoxo........

Missing someone...

Grrrr... Why? Why? Why?!

:-(

2011!

Well 2011 sure didn't start off like I thought it would. That's okay, this small bump on the road just ignited my desire to kick ass. When I say kick ass I mean I want to do all that is possible to better myself and just outshine everything around me. I will not let anything or anyone dull my shine!

Like I posted on FB today, "What doesn't break you makes you stronger" and I will NOT be broken. Hell to THE No! lol....

I have this fire in my heart that just makes me want to be at my fullest potential and I will get there.

Whoa... I was typing pretty fast there. :-)

xoxoxoxoxo

Canceling MySpace

I have finally decided to cancel my MySpace account. I should have done this a long time ago but I finally got around to it. All my friends are on Facebook and I really don't have a need for MySpace. It's also very annoying. Everything pops out at you. I've come to enjoy and appreciate the simpleness of FB.

MySpace also represents this old chapter in my life. A chapter that includes people no longer in my life. Thank God! :-)

Anyhow, I was a click away from canceling my account when MySpace warned me that all my pics and blog posts would be permanently deleted. Oh no! That's right!

The pics are all on my computer but the blog posts were not saved anywhere. I really enjoy a lot of them because they are so telling of my life journey and moods. :-) Anyhow, I decided to transfer all my fave MySpace blog posts to this blog. Now that it's all done I can click on Cancel Account.

:-)

It's The Shits!

Original Post Date: March 1, 2009 via MySpace

Current mood:bored

It's stupid but I love it because Shit is my fave word.
For some time many of us have wondered who is Jack Shit? We find ourselves at a loss when someone says, u dont no Jack Shit? Well, thanks to my efforts u can now respond in an intellectual way. Jack Shit is the only son of Awe Shit who married O Shit, the owners of Knee Deep N Shit Inc. In turn Jack Shit married Noe Shit. The couple had 6 children: Holie Shit, Giva Shit, Fulla Shit, Bull Shit, and the twins Deep Shit and Dip Shit. Deep Shit married Dumb Shit, a high school dropout. After 15 years, Jack and Noe Shit got divorced and she married Ted Sherlock and became Noe Shit Sherlock. Meanwhile, Dip Shit married Lota Shit and had a rather nervous disposition named Chicken Shit. Fulla Shit n Giva Shit married the Happens brothers n had a double wedding. The newspaper invited everyone to the Shit-Happens wedding. Bull Shit traveled the world and returned home with an italian bride Pisa
Shit. So from now on, no one can tell u that u dont no Jack Shit..Keep dis shit goin!

I'm a Princess Because My Mom Says So!

Original Post Date: November 25, 2008 via MySpace

Current mood:bored

Soooooo... my awesomest friend Weenie started a blog yesterday. Check it out peeps!

http://findingcreativityagain.blogspot.com/

I'm happy and excited for her. I'm also excited for myself because I can't wait to read her blog posts! Anyhow, I was trying to figure out how to subscribe to her blog and next thing I know I'm in the middle of creating my own blog. I stopped and almost hit the cancel button. Why would I create a blog? I use MySpace for blogging anyway. Then I said "Why not?". In my usual quest to be silly whenever possible I decided to go for it. So if you're curious about my random thoughts and ramblings check it out. Hey, become a follower or save it to your favorites. Click on the link below:
I'm a Princess because My Mom Says So!
Adios mi amigos!

Lyrics to Fave Songs...

Original Post Date: October 13, 2008 via MySpace

Current mood:imaginative

Artist: Pearl Jam
Album: Miscellaneous
Song: Yellow Ledbetter

Unsealed on a porch a letter sat.
Then you said, "I wanna leave it again."
Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand. And on the sand I wanna leave it again. Yeah.
On a weekend I wanna wish it all away, yeah.
And they called and I said that "I want what I said" and then I call out again.
And the reason oughta' leave her calm, I know.
I said "I know what I wear not the boxer or the bag."

Ah yeah, can you see them out on the porch? Yeah, but they don't wave.
But I see them round the front way. Yeah.
And I know, and I know. I don't want to stay.
Make me cry...

I see... Ooh I don't know why there's something else.
I wanna drum it all away...
Oh, I said, "I don't, I don't know wheather I was the boxer or the bag."

Ah yeah, can you see them out on the porch? Yeah, but they don't wave.
But I see them round the front way. Yeah.
And I know, and I know. I don't wanna stay at all.
I don't wanna stay. Yeah.
I don't wanna stay. (x2)
I don't... Don't wanna, oh... Yeah. Ooh... Ohh...

Artist: Radiohead
Album: OK Computer
Song: Karma Police

Karma police, arrest this man
He talks in maths
He buzzes like a fridge
He's like a detuned radio

Karma police, arrest this girl
Her Hitler hairdo is
Making me feel ill
And we have crashed her party

This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us

Karma Police
I've given all I can
It's not enough
I've given all I can
But we're still on the payroll

This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us

And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
Phew, for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

End It With A BANG!

Original Post Date: December 31, 2007 via MySpace

Current mood:melancholy

Hello everyone,

A friend of mine just posted this blog on her Myspace page. It's beautiful, inspirational, & sums up everything I'm feeling. I want to thank her again for posting this. Enjoy it and be inspired!



"End it with a BANG!" By Noelia


Part of our human nature is to want the best for ourselves and start fresh when things have gone so wrong: bad acquaintances, ex-lovers, broken hearts, jobs we are unhappy with, misery, unrequited love,instability,insecurity,doubts and so on……

I like to think of a new year as a chance to start over, maybe I am not starting from scratch but I can face things with a new attitude. I do not have "resolutions", I have plans for myself. I think this past year was pretty damm good and I am patting myself on the back for that. I started this year telling myself that no matter what, I was going to not let little shit become a big stinking fest and I accomplished it. Of course there was little things that I can't change about myself, like my badass character. I can't fake a laugh when there is nothing funny. That's just who I am, but anytime I was faced with a situation that could have easily broken my spirit down, I let God take the wheel and take me the right direction. I promised myself that I would make sure that no matter what, I would not compromise or jeopardize my faith in God or myself. And I didn't. As all things in this life, I have learned a lot about myself this past year. I broken heart will always mend with the band-aids that are called friends and Family. A solution for a bad day at work is only a call away, and when you are in the depths of your own personal hell you have to dig deep inside of you and find that savior which is YOU!!!!

This year I saw things that up to this point are difficult to see, especially when you cannot control the situation or emotions involved, especially when it has to do with a loved one. I trust that everything is going to work out for the best and if it doesn't then there was only so much I could do; I just know that if I am not able to assist in that matter that someone else will come along and assist in the same manner that I would have.

I reacquainted myself with true friends that I can now honestly say I love.

I had health scares, emotional roller coasters, insecurities and doubts that I had to face and answer and in the end I felt content with how I dealt with them and feel that I came out triumphant. Of course, had it not been for the support of my soul mates, I probably would not have come out of it as I did.

This 2007 was just another year in which I learned of just what a great person I can truly be and that I can come out of mostly anything when I am able to humble myself and ask for guidance from those that surround me and trust in God. We all choose what higher power to believe in and I have chosen God. God has brought me to lots of crossroads and I've crossed them with a helping hand and an honest prayer.

I've come to terms with the fact that I probably will never be a person that wears their heart on their shoulder but I am an emotional person.

I like to consider myself an open book, but only those awesome people that take the chance to read me will enjoy what kind of story I am.





So for this year to end with a BANG, I want to salute and make a toast to all of you! My friends and acquaintances, My soul mates, MY FAMILIA!!!!!!! Thank you for being part of who I am. Without you, I would not be the Badass Motherfucker that I am and thank you for loving me, with faults and all.

Reasons to Love You

Original Post Date: September 12, 2007 via MySpace

Current mood:flirty

I love Meiko and I luv, luv, luv this song! What girl hasn't felt this way?

"Reasons to Love You " lyrics... By: Meiko

Give me a reason to fall in love
Take my hand and let's dance
Give me a reason to make me smile
Cause I think I forgot how

I wanna fall asleep with you tonight
I wanna know that I am safe when you hold me tight
I wanna feel like I wanna feel forever

Girls need attention, and boys need us
So let's make everybody glad
That they have each other in each others arms
Oh let's make everybody glad

I want you........

I wanna dream away with you tonight
We can go anywhere you would like
I wanna feel how I wanna feel forever

I want you.

Beer Prayer

Original Post Date: August 21, 2007 via MySpace

Current mood:amused

I saw the following in one of my friends pages. Thought it was funny and wanted to share.

Santa cerveza que estas en el hielo, tan refrescante suena tu nombre, venga a nosotros tu efecto, hagase tu voluntad en la mesa como en el suelo, danos hoy nuestra borrachera de cada dia, perdona nuestras mezclas como nosotros perdonamos a los meseros, no nos dejes caer en la cruda y libranos de los policias, salud.

Upcoming Travel Plans!!!

Original Post Date: August 15, 2007 via MySpace

Current mood:bouncy

Hi Ya'll! I'm so excited about the next couple of months I just had to share for whoever cares.

In a couple of weeks I will be traveling to Portland, Oregon to visit my awesome assssss friend who I miss soooo much. I hear great things about Portland all the time so I can't wait!

Then a couple of weeks after that trip I'm heading to Mexico City!! My other awesome asssss friend is going with me and we're going to paaaarty like it's Independance Day! Actually, we'll be there during Mexico's Independance celebrations. We'll visit a few historical sites, go to church , and hit up the hottest bars/clubs. I CAN'T WAIT!

Okay, I finally stopped bouncing off the walls after sharing this news with y'all.

Feeling a little lost...

Original Post Date: June 3, 2007 via MySpace

Current mood:melancholy

I freaking love this song! It describes a lot of what I've been feeling lately. This song is currently playing on my profile. Hope you like Katy. She has a very powerful voice. Check out her page on myspace.



"Lost" by Katy Perry



I'm out on my own again

Face down in the porcelain

Feeling so high, but looking so low

Party favors on the floor

Group of girls banging on the door

So many new fair weather friends

Oh, oh, oh

Have you ever been so lost?

Known the way, and still so lost?

Caught in the eye

of a hurricane

Slowly waiving goodbye

like a pageant parade

So sick of this town

pulling me down

Though mother says

I should come back home

But can't find the way

'cuz the way is gone

So if I pray

Am I just sending the words

into outer space?

Have you ever been so lost?

Know the way, still so lost?

Another night waiting for

Someone to take me home

Have you ever been so lost?

Is there a light…

Is there a light at

the end of the road?

I'm pushing everyone away

'cuz I can't feel this anymore

Can't feel this anymore

Have you ever been so lost?

Know the way, and still so lost?

Another night waiting for

Someone to take me home

Have you ever been so lost?

Have you ever been so lost?





*I'm actually listening to Katy Perry as I write this blog posting. Since myspace couldn't find her name when I searched for her, I posted Mazzy Star instead. I'll be listening to Mazzy Star in a minute anyway.

A Poem by Maya Angelou

Original Post Date: January 5, 2007 via MySpace

Current mood:grateful

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

~ Maya Angelou

A long lost letter...

Original Post Date: November 8, 2006 via MySpace

Current mood:nostalgic

Not many of you know, but I keep EVERYTHING! Today I was cleaning out some drawers and I found a very special letter. I wrote this letter many years ago to a friend. I've written many letters to this person over the years and a lot of them were never sent out. This particular letter was one of those, only I regret not sending it. I do not talk to this person anymore, but it's sad to see how a great friendship can easily go downhill if it is not taken care of.

I'm posting the contents of this letter for many reasons. One of them is to hopefully deliver the message. Another one is in hopes that for the people who read this blog, it will inspire you guys to take extra care of the special people in your lives. Anyway, here's the letter.

Dear Friend,

This letter might come as a surprise to you. I just needed to tell you how I feel one last time. Our friendship use to be so open and easy to communicate. I had to give that memory its justice by writing this letter. It's taken me a while to get this far. You see, usually when I start thinking about you I never have a pen & paper handy. By the time I get a pen & paper my thoughts and feelings are all jumbled in my head, I've lost my nerve to write to you, and then my pride steps in and I convince myself to not write. But deep down inside I wanted to do this for quite some time.

I'll be honest and tell you that I've tried my best to be mad at you, to dislike you, and to forget about you. But I've failed. You see, I can't be mad at you for wanting to move on with your life without me. This is how life works.

"Some people come into our lives and quietly go,
Others stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts,
And we are never the same."

That is exactly what happened between us. I will never be the same young insecure girl I was before you entered my life. The footprints you left in my heart will be there forever along with all those cherished memories. Thank you for loving me back then, for making me believe in myself. Thank you for the confidence you helped me build. I will always love you for that.

Life has been pretty good to me. I've been blessed with great friends. Both old and new. Without them I would be a very lonely person. Thanks to all of their love, support and affection, my heart has no room for bad feelings.

May life give you the very best it has to offer.

Walkout

Original Post Date: October 22, 2006 via MySpace

Current mood:contemplative

Do you guys remember Halle Barry's speech when she won her Oscar for Best Actress? She thanked so many people for paving the way for her. She also said that winning that Oscar would open many doors for African Americans. I loved her speech, but I found it so hard to relate to.

I'm going to be completely honest with you guys. I absolutely know that I am a lucky person. I've never felt like I have been discriminated against because of my ethnic background or because of my looks. I've never felt like a door was closed to me because of this either. I would hear people discuss the Chicano Movement of the 1960's, but like most young adults, I would never pay much attention. It happened way before my time so why did I care? I've never thought highly of people who will do extreme things to get attention. I also never blamed society for my problems. In error I saw the Chicano Movement as the latinos blaming society for their misfortunes rather than working hard like the rest of us for a better life. Today I realized two things. One, just how EASY all of us have it. Two, just how wrong I was about the Chicano Movement AND how much I owe to the Movement for the "easy" life I now live.

I saw an HBO film called Walkout. The movie was produced by Edward James Olmos and HBO Films. It's a great movie and I feel that every latino should watch it. It's based on the true story of the East L.A. Walkouts in 1968. These students faced so much humiliation for just being latino. It would get worse if they were caught speaking spanish. This movie was like a splash of cold water in my face. If it weren't for those brave and proud latino students who knows how my public school years would have been. The walkouts took place not even ten years before I was born. My older sister's were born just 5 years later. I realized that these events weren't that long ago, yet we have come so far. Us Los Angeles latinos owe it all to those highschool students from Lincoln High, Roosevelt High, Garfield High, and Belmont High. You guys made such a huge impact that is still felt to this day.

I was so moved by the movie that I couldn't stop thinking about it. Halle Barry's speech came to mind. I finally knew what she was talking about when she thanked certain people for "paving her way". I'm not naive enough to think that the Movement is over. We have a long way to go, but thanks to those brave people of the 60's, we have a great start.

L.A. High Class of '96 Reunion!

Original Post Date: October 2, 2006 via MySpace

Current mood:amused

A few of us decided to hang out on Sept. 30th. We figured this was the closest we would come to a 10 year Highschool reunion. Therefore we made it official.

L.A. High's C/O '96 10 yr Reunion!

Baby News Again!!!!!

Original Post Date: July 16, 2006 via MySpace

Current mood:ecstatic

No I'm not pregnant! Geez people! My baby niece was born though! Her name is Andrea Coronado. She weighs 6 pounds 2 ounces and is 18 inches long. The entire family is crazy about her!

December Baby...

Original Post Date: June 24, 2006 via MySpace

Current mood:pleased

I think it's pretty close. What do you think?

---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music

My Three Little Birds...

How I love my three little birds...

...where would I be without them? In life whether things are going great or not so great, you will always need three little birds. I've always known I had these birds, but I just realized how scary life would be without them. I see this world as a cup half full rather than half empty because of them. Thank you Jesus/Allah/Budha for placing such wonderful souls in my life.

Ay Amor Divino...

Original Post Date: April 10, 2006 via MySpace

Current mood:happy

Como te extrano mi amor porque sera
me falta todo en la vida si no estas
Como te extrano mi amor que puedo hacer
te extrano tanto que voy a enloquecer.

A veces pienso que tu nunca vendras
pero te quiero y te tengo que esperar
es el destino me lleva hasta el final
donde algun dia mi amor te encontrara

Ay amor divino
pronto tienes que volver

Como te extrano
me falta todo en la vida si no estas
Como te extrano
te extrano tanto que voy a enloquecer.

A veces pienso que tu nunca vendras
pero te quiero y te tengo que esperar
es el destino me lleva hasta el final
donde algun dia mi amor te encontrara

Ay amor divino
pronto tienes que volver

El dolor es fuerte lo soporto
porque vivo pensando en tu amor
quiero verte tenerte y besarte
y entregarte todo mi corazon.

Ay amor divino...

- Cafe Tacuba

Tag! I'm It!

Original Post: March 26, 2006 via MySpace

Current mood:calm

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic, " six weird habits/things about ME," and people who get tagged need to write a blog about their six weird habits..things" as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.Don't forget to leave a comment that says, " You are tagged" in their myspace comments and tell them to read your blog.

#1 - I have a mini collection of Pez candy dispenser's. I really don't know why, but I do.

#2 - My closet is color coordinated. It's been this way for years but I'm thinking of changing it soon.

#3 - I have tons of food recipes. Trust me, this is weird for me. One day they will be used. One day...

#4 - I'm telepathetic!

#5 - My sister and I have the same birthday, only she's 4 years older than me. Not weird but cool fact.

#6 - Okay I've been staring at my computer for over 20 minutes trying to think of another weird fact about me. Fact is that I'm not as weird as some of you out there. I'm pretty normal. lol!

The New Year Spell

Original Post Date: January 16, 2006 via MySpace

Current mood:hopeful

This was written by Jena Campion. I loved it and had to post it on my blog too. Enjoy....

i can't wait to see what 2006 has in store for me? i wonder where i will go? who i will meet? what i will do? all those who wish me love, peace, and happiness are welcomed in my life with open arms and an open heart. all those who wish me harm, run. i'll give you a 30 second head start. but now's your only chance, run. some might leave my life, some new people will join my life. if you are to go, go with love. no anger or hatred. go be a success in life and i shall see you once again. and some from my past will be making a cameo appearance. to them, hello again. let's finish our karma, good or bad. and may i follow my path, may i be in the right place at the right time so my destiny will find me. where ever that path shall lead...let's go. - Jena Campion

Baby News!!!

Original Post Date: November 27, 2005 via MySpace

Current mood:excited

No I am not pregnant. But my sister MJ is!!! Yaaaay! She just found out yesterday and I was the first person she broke the news to. We are all very excited and happy about future baby Coronado. MJ has her first doctor's appt. tomorrow and will be finding out how far along she is. I can't wait to see her belly grow as my future niece/nephew grows inside of her. Yaaaay! Time to go shopping for baby clothes!

xoxo.....Princesa Sandra