"Don't give in to your fears," said the alchemist, in a strangely gentle voice. "If you do, you won't be able to talk to your heart."
"If a person is living out his Personal Legend, he knows everything he needs to know. There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure."
I have always known that I have a huge fear of failure and that it has made me who I am today. I've lied to myself by thinking that acting on my fear was a good thing but I just now realized that it isn't. Because I have reacted to fear all my life I am now unhappy with a certain part of my life. Maybe more than one part...
How can I change this? It's ingrained in me, "better safe than sorry!".
Man, I have some work to do... :-)
About Me
Monday, January 10, 2011
Listening To Your Heart (The Alchemist)
"Everyone on earth has a treasure that awaits them. We, people's hearts, seldom say much about those treasures, because people no longer want to go in search of them. We speak of them only to children. Later, we simply let life proceed, in it's own direction, towards it's own fate. BUT, UNFORTUNATELY, VERY FEW FOLLOW THE PATH LAID OUT FOR THEM---THE PATH TO THEIR PERSONAL LEGENDS, AND TO HAPPINESS. Most people see the world as a threatening place, and, because they do, the world turns out, indeed, to be a threatening place."
When we're on the path to realizing our dreams...
"Every search begins with beginner's luck. And every search ends with the victor's being severely tested." or "The darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn."
All of this made think about a life dream I had. I didn't follow my Personal Legend because I was afraid to and what I had at the time was easy for me. Now I can't stop thinking about it.
:-/
When we're on the path to realizing our dreams...
"Every search begins with beginner's luck. And every search ends with the victor's being severely tested." or "The darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn."
All of this made think about a life dream I had. I didn't follow my Personal Legend because I was afraid to and what I had at the time was easy for me. Now I can't stop thinking about it.
:-/
Sunday, January 9, 2011
The Alchemist, cont...
Maybe I was wrong to be upset? Maybe I wasn't being supportive enough? Like my last post said, if someone truly cares they will accompany us in our journey. What I am just now understanding is that you don't have to physically accompany someone in their journey. Being supportive of the journey is just as good.
Or maybe I was right for both of us?
"The boy felt jealous of the freedom of the wind, and saw that he could have the same freedom. There was nothing to hold him back except himself. The sheep, the merchant's daughter, and the fields of Andalusia were only steps along the way to his Personal Legend."
I was just a step and I should understand that because he was also a step for me. Yes it hurt for a bit, but to know that we're each others step in our own quest for our Personal Legend gives me comfort.
Or maybe I was right for both of us?
"The boy felt jealous of the freedom of the wind, and saw that he could have the same freedom. There was nothing to hold him back except himself. The sheep, the merchant's daughter, and the fields of Andalusia were only steps along the way to his Personal Legend."
I was just a step and I should understand that because he was also a step for me. Yes it hurt for a bit, but to know that we're each others step in our own quest for our Personal Legend gives me comfort.
The Alchemist
The book is so inspiring and comforting in the simplist of ways. There are no complicated thoughts, sentences, or words to figure out. It's 167 pages are life changing. I haven't even started the actual story and I'm already moved by something Paulo wrote in his preface.
"If we have the courage to disinter dream, we are then faced by the second obstacle: love. We know what we want to do, but are afraid of hurting those around us by abandoning everything in order to pursue our dream. We do not realize that love is just a further impetus, not something that will prevent us from going forward. We do not realize that those who genuinely wish us well want us to be happy and are prepared to accompany us on that journey."
- Paulo Coelho
Some people just don't understand this and so they distance themselves from loved ones to "protect" them. In the end they hurt themselves and their loved ones.
Anyhow, my posts today will be focused around this great book and the author.
Xoxoxoxo........
Saturday, January 8, 2011
axelhoney
Check her out!
www.axelhoney.com
I luv the arts!
Xoxoxoxo....
Friday, January 7, 2011
Akasha
He's really fun to have dinner with because he always orders EVERYTHING on the menu. Right now he just finished ordering the whole right side of the menu. Hahaha....
Okay, time to focus back on dinner & chatting with him.
Cheers!
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Dinner With Dy
A funny thing about her is that she doesn't like it when people call me Sandy. She always says "But you're Dra and I'm Dy!" Hahahaha....
I LOVE this lady so much! Every now and then we splurge & go out for dinner and we talk for hours. Tonight was such a night. She wanted to celebrate my birthday since we hadn't seen each other in a long time. Long time for us is a couple of months...maybe three. We met at Lago, an Italian restaurant on the promenade.
After dinner we saw a very attractive sign outside of Banana Repuplic that said "50% Off" and we couldn't resist walking in. I am very happy with my two new sweaters & tshirt. Yaay!
I had a wonderful evening with Dy but that's nothing new. <3
Xoxoxoxo........
Monday, January 3, 2011
2011!
Well 2011 sure didn't start off like I thought it would. That's okay, this small bump on the road just ignited my desire to kick ass. When I say kick ass I mean I want to do all that is possible to better myself and just outshine everything around me. I will not let anything or anyone dull my shine!
Like I posted on FB today, "What doesn't break you makes you stronger" and I will NOT be broken. Hell to THE No! lol....
I have this fire in my heart that just makes me want to be at my fullest potential and I will get there.
Whoa... I was typing pretty fast there. :-)
xoxoxoxoxo
Like I posted on FB today, "What doesn't break you makes you stronger" and I will NOT be broken. Hell to THE No! lol....
I have this fire in my heart that just makes me want to be at my fullest potential and I will get there.
Whoa... I was typing pretty fast there. :-)
xoxoxoxoxo
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Canceling MySpace
I have finally decided to cancel my MySpace account. I should have done this a long time ago but I finally got around to it. All my friends are on Facebook and I really don't have a need for MySpace. It's also very annoying. Everything pops out at you. I've come to enjoy and appreciate the simpleness of FB.
MySpace also represents this old chapter in my life. A chapter that includes people no longer in my life. Thank God! :-)
Anyhow, I was a click away from canceling my account when MySpace warned me that all my pics and blog posts would be permanently deleted. Oh no! That's right!
The pics are all on my computer but the blog posts were not saved anywhere. I really enjoy a lot of them because they are so telling of my life journey and moods. :-) Anyhow, I decided to transfer all my fave MySpace blog posts to this blog. Now that it's all done I can click on Cancel Account.
:-)
MySpace also represents this old chapter in my life. A chapter that includes people no longer in my life. Thank God! :-)
Anyhow, I was a click away from canceling my account when MySpace warned me that all my pics and blog posts would be permanently deleted. Oh no! That's right!
The pics are all on my computer but the blog posts were not saved anywhere. I really enjoy a lot of them because they are so telling of my life journey and moods. :-) Anyhow, I decided to transfer all my fave MySpace blog posts to this blog. Now that it's all done I can click on Cancel Account.
:-)
It's The Shits!
Original Post Date: March 1, 2009 via MySpace
Current mood:bored
It's stupid but I love it because Shit is my fave word.
For some time many of us have wondered who is Jack Shit? We find ourselves at a loss when someone says, u dont no Jack Shit? Well, thanks to my efforts u can now respond in an intellectual way. Jack Shit is the only son of Awe Shit who married O Shit, the owners of Knee Deep N Shit Inc. In turn Jack Shit married Noe Shit. The couple had 6 children: Holie Shit, Giva Shit, Fulla Shit, Bull Shit, and the twins Deep Shit and Dip Shit. Deep Shit married Dumb Shit, a high school dropout. After 15 years, Jack and Noe Shit got divorced and she married Ted Sherlock and became Noe Shit Sherlock. Meanwhile, Dip Shit married Lota Shit and had a rather nervous disposition named Chicken Shit. Fulla Shit n Giva Shit married the Happens brothers n had a double wedding. The newspaper invited everyone to the Shit-Happens wedding. Bull Shit traveled the world and returned home with an italian bride Pisa
Shit. So from now on, no one can tell u that u dont no Jack Shit..Keep dis shit goin!
Current mood:bored
It's stupid but I love it because Shit is my fave word.
For some time many of us have wondered who is Jack Shit? We find ourselves at a loss when someone says, u dont no Jack Shit? Well, thanks to my efforts u can now respond in an intellectual way. Jack Shit is the only son of Awe Shit who married O Shit, the owners of Knee Deep N Shit Inc. In turn Jack Shit married Noe Shit. The couple had 6 children: Holie Shit, Giva Shit, Fulla Shit, Bull Shit, and the twins Deep Shit and Dip Shit. Deep Shit married Dumb Shit, a high school dropout. After 15 years, Jack and Noe Shit got divorced and she married Ted Sherlock and became Noe Shit Sherlock. Meanwhile, Dip Shit married Lota Shit and had a rather nervous disposition named Chicken Shit. Fulla Shit n Giva Shit married the Happens brothers n had a double wedding. The newspaper invited everyone to the Shit-Happens wedding. Bull Shit traveled the world and returned home with an italian bride Pisa
Shit. So from now on, no one can tell u that u dont no Jack Shit..Keep dis shit goin!
I'm a Princess Because My Mom Says So!
Original Post Date: November 25, 2008 via MySpace
Current mood:bored
Soooooo... my awesomest friend Weenie started a blog yesterday. Check it out peeps!
http://findingcreativityagain.blogspot.com/
I'm happy and excited for her. I'm also excited for myself because I can't wait to read her blog posts! Anyhow, I was trying to figure out how to subscribe to her blog and next thing I know I'm in the middle of creating my own blog. I stopped and almost hit the cancel button. Why would I create a blog? I use MySpace for blogging anyway. Then I said "Why not?". In my usual quest to be silly whenever possible I decided to go for it. So if you're curious about my random thoughts and ramblings check it out. Hey, become a follower or save it to your favorites. Click on the link below:
I'm a Princess because My Mom Says So!
Adios mi amigos!
Current mood:bored
Soooooo... my awesomest friend Weenie started a blog yesterday. Check it out peeps!
http://findingcreativityagain.blogspot.com/
I'm happy and excited for her. I'm also excited for myself because I can't wait to read her blog posts! Anyhow, I was trying to figure out how to subscribe to her blog and next thing I know I'm in the middle of creating my own blog. I stopped and almost hit the cancel button. Why would I create a blog? I use MySpace for blogging anyway. Then I said "Why not?". In my usual quest to be silly whenever possible I decided to go for it. So if you're curious about my random thoughts and ramblings check it out. Hey, become a follower or save it to your favorites. Click on the link below:
I'm a Princess because My Mom Says So!
Adios mi amigos!
Lyrics to Fave Songs...
Original Post Date: October 13, 2008 via MySpace
Current mood:imaginative
Artist: Pearl Jam
Album: Miscellaneous
Song: Yellow Ledbetter
Unsealed on a porch a letter sat.
Then you said, "I wanna leave it again."
Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand. And on the sand I wanna leave it again. Yeah.
On a weekend I wanna wish it all away, yeah.
And they called and I said that "I want what I said" and then I call out again.
And the reason oughta' leave her calm, I know.
I said "I know what I wear not the boxer or the bag."
Ah yeah, can you see them out on the porch? Yeah, but they don't wave.
But I see them round the front way. Yeah.
And I know, and I know. I don't want to stay.
Make me cry...
I see... Ooh I don't know why there's something else.
I wanna drum it all away...
Oh, I said, "I don't, I don't know wheather I was the boxer or the bag."
Ah yeah, can you see them out on the porch? Yeah, but they don't wave.
But I see them round the front way. Yeah.
And I know, and I know. I don't wanna stay at all.
I don't wanna stay. Yeah.
I don't wanna stay. (x2)
I don't... Don't wanna, oh... Yeah. Ooh... Ohh...
Artist: Radiohead
Album: OK Computer
Song: Karma Police
Karma police, arrest this man
He talks in maths
He buzzes like a fridge
He's like a detuned radio
Karma police, arrest this girl
Her Hitler hairdo is
Making me feel ill
And we have crashed her party
This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us
Karma Police
I've given all I can
It's not enough
I've given all I can
But we're still on the payroll
This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
Phew, for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
Current mood:imaginative
Artist: Pearl Jam
Album: Miscellaneous
Song: Yellow Ledbetter
Unsealed on a porch a letter sat.
Then you said, "I wanna leave it again."
Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand. And on the sand I wanna leave it again. Yeah.
On a weekend I wanna wish it all away, yeah.
And they called and I said that "I want what I said" and then I call out again.
And the reason oughta' leave her calm, I know.
I said "I know what I wear not the boxer or the bag."
Ah yeah, can you see them out on the porch? Yeah, but they don't wave.
But I see them round the front way. Yeah.
And I know, and I know. I don't want to stay.
Make me cry...
I see... Ooh I don't know why there's something else.
I wanna drum it all away...
Oh, I said, "I don't, I don't know wheather I was the boxer or the bag."
Ah yeah, can you see them out on the porch? Yeah, but they don't wave.
But I see them round the front way. Yeah.
And I know, and I know. I don't wanna stay at all.
I don't wanna stay. Yeah.
I don't wanna stay. (x2)
I don't... Don't wanna, oh... Yeah. Ooh... Ohh...
Artist: Radiohead
Album: OK Computer
Song: Karma Police
Karma police, arrest this man
He talks in maths
He buzzes like a fridge
He's like a detuned radio
Karma police, arrest this girl
Her Hitler hairdo is
Making me feel ill
And we have crashed her party
This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us
Karma Police
I've given all I can
It's not enough
I've given all I can
But we're still on the payroll
This is what you get
This is what you get
This is what you get when you mess with us
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
For for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
Phew, for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
End It With A BANG!
Original Post Date: December 31, 2007 via MySpace
Current mood:melancholy
Hello everyone,
A friend of mine just posted this blog on her Myspace page. It's beautiful, inspirational, & sums up everything I'm feeling. I want to thank her again for posting this. Enjoy it and be inspired!
"End it with a BANG!" By Noelia
Part of our human nature is to want the best for ourselves and start fresh when things have gone so wrong: bad acquaintances, ex-lovers, broken hearts, jobs we are unhappy with, misery, unrequited love,instability,insecurity,doubts and so on……
I like to think of a new year as a chance to start over, maybe I am not starting from scratch but I can face things with a new attitude. I do not have "resolutions", I have plans for myself. I think this past year was pretty damm good and I am patting myself on the back for that. I started this year telling myself that no matter what, I was going to not let little shit become a big stinking fest and I accomplished it. Of course there was little things that I can't change about myself, like my badass character. I can't fake a laugh when there is nothing funny. That's just who I am, but anytime I was faced with a situation that could have easily broken my spirit down, I let God take the wheel and take me the right direction. I promised myself that I would make sure that no matter what, I would not compromise or jeopardize my faith in God or myself. And I didn't. As all things in this life, I have learned a lot about myself this past year. I broken heart will always mend with the band-aids that are called friends and Family. A solution for a bad day at work is only a call away, and when you are in the depths of your own personal hell you have to dig deep inside of you and find that savior which is YOU!!!!
This year I saw things that up to this point are difficult to see, especially when you cannot control the situation or emotions involved, especially when it has to do with a loved one. I trust that everything is going to work out for the best and if it doesn't then there was only so much I could do; I just know that if I am not able to assist in that matter that someone else will come along and assist in the same manner that I would have.
I reacquainted myself with true friends that I can now honestly say I love.
I had health scares, emotional roller coasters, insecurities and doubts that I had to face and answer and in the end I felt content with how I dealt with them and feel that I came out triumphant. Of course, had it not been for the support of my soul mates, I probably would not have come out of it as I did.
This 2007 was just another year in which I learned of just what a great person I can truly be and that I can come out of mostly anything when I am able to humble myself and ask for guidance from those that surround me and trust in God. We all choose what higher power to believe in and I have chosen God. God has brought me to lots of crossroads and I've crossed them with a helping hand and an honest prayer.
I've come to terms with the fact that I probably will never be a person that wears their heart on their shoulder but I am an emotional person.
I like to consider myself an open book, but only those awesome people that take the chance to read me will enjoy what kind of story I am.
So for this year to end with a BANG, I want to salute and make a toast to all of you! My friends and acquaintances, My soul mates, MY FAMILIA!!!!!!! Thank you for being part of who I am. Without you, I would not be the Badass Motherfucker that I am and thank you for loving me, with faults and all.
Current mood:melancholy
Hello everyone,
A friend of mine just posted this blog on her Myspace page. It's beautiful, inspirational, & sums up everything I'm feeling. I want to thank her again for posting this. Enjoy it and be inspired!
"End it with a BANG!" By Noelia
Part of our human nature is to want the best for ourselves and start fresh when things have gone so wrong: bad acquaintances, ex-lovers, broken hearts, jobs we are unhappy with, misery, unrequited love,instability,insecurity,doubts and so on……
I like to think of a new year as a chance to start over, maybe I am not starting from scratch but I can face things with a new attitude. I do not have "resolutions", I have plans for myself. I think this past year was pretty damm good and I am patting myself on the back for that. I started this year telling myself that no matter what, I was going to not let little shit become a big stinking fest and I accomplished it. Of course there was little things that I can't change about myself, like my badass character. I can't fake a laugh when there is nothing funny. That's just who I am, but anytime I was faced with a situation that could have easily broken my spirit down, I let God take the wheel and take me the right direction. I promised myself that I would make sure that no matter what, I would not compromise or jeopardize my faith in God or myself. And I didn't. As all things in this life, I have learned a lot about myself this past year. I broken heart will always mend with the band-aids that are called friends and Family. A solution for a bad day at work is only a call away, and when you are in the depths of your own personal hell you have to dig deep inside of you and find that savior which is YOU!!!!
This year I saw things that up to this point are difficult to see, especially when you cannot control the situation or emotions involved, especially when it has to do with a loved one. I trust that everything is going to work out for the best and if it doesn't then there was only so much I could do; I just know that if I am not able to assist in that matter that someone else will come along and assist in the same manner that I would have.
I reacquainted myself with true friends that I can now honestly say I love.
I had health scares, emotional roller coasters, insecurities and doubts that I had to face and answer and in the end I felt content with how I dealt with them and feel that I came out triumphant. Of course, had it not been for the support of my soul mates, I probably would not have come out of it as I did.
This 2007 was just another year in which I learned of just what a great person I can truly be and that I can come out of mostly anything when I am able to humble myself and ask for guidance from those that surround me and trust in God. We all choose what higher power to believe in and I have chosen God. God has brought me to lots of crossroads and I've crossed them with a helping hand and an honest prayer.
I've come to terms with the fact that I probably will never be a person that wears their heart on their shoulder but I am an emotional person.
I like to consider myself an open book, but only those awesome people that take the chance to read me will enjoy what kind of story I am.
So for this year to end with a BANG, I want to salute and make a toast to all of you! My friends and acquaintances, My soul mates, MY FAMILIA!!!!!!! Thank you for being part of who I am. Without you, I would not be the Badass Motherfucker that I am and thank you for loving me, with faults and all.
Reasons to Love You
Original Post Date: September 12, 2007 via MySpace
Current mood:flirty
I love Meiko and I luv, luv, luv this song! What girl hasn't felt this way?
"Reasons to Love You " lyrics... By: Meiko
Give me a reason to fall in love
Take my hand and let's dance
Give me a reason to make me smile
Cause I think I forgot how
I wanna fall asleep with you tonight
I wanna know that I am safe when you hold me tight
I wanna feel like I wanna feel forever
Girls need attention, and boys need us
So let's make everybody glad
That they have each other in each others arms
Oh let's make everybody glad
I want you........
I wanna dream away with you tonight
We can go anywhere you would like
I wanna feel how I wanna feel forever
I want you.
Current mood:flirty
I love Meiko and I luv, luv, luv this song! What girl hasn't felt this way?
"Reasons to Love You " lyrics... By: Meiko
Give me a reason to fall in love
Take my hand and let's dance
Give me a reason to make me smile
Cause I think I forgot how
I wanna fall asleep with you tonight
I wanna know that I am safe when you hold me tight
I wanna feel like I wanna feel forever
Girls need attention, and boys need us
So let's make everybody glad
That they have each other in each others arms
Oh let's make everybody glad
I want you........
I wanna dream away with you tonight
We can go anywhere you would like
I wanna feel how I wanna feel forever
I want you.
Beer Prayer
Original Post Date: August 21, 2007 via MySpace
Current mood:amused
I saw the following in one of my friends pages. Thought it was funny and wanted to share.
Santa cerveza que estas en el hielo, tan refrescante suena tu nombre, venga a nosotros tu efecto, hagase tu voluntad en la mesa como en el suelo, danos hoy nuestra borrachera de cada dia, perdona nuestras mezclas como nosotros perdonamos a los meseros, no nos dejes caer en la cruda y libranos de los policias, salud.
Current mood:amused
I saw the following in one of my friends pages. Thought it was funny and wanted to share.
Santa cerveza que estas en el hielo, tan refrescante suena tu nombre, venga a nosotros tu efecto, hagase tu voluntad en la mesa como en el suelo, danos hoy nuestra borrachera de cada dia, perdona nuestras mezclas como nosotros perdonamos a los meseros, no nos dejes caer en la cruda y libranos de los policias, salud.
Upcoming Travel Plans!!!
Original Post Date: August 15, 2007 via MySpace
Current mood:bouncy
Hi Ya'll! I'm so excited about the next couple of months I just had to share for whoever cares.
In a couple of weeks I will be traveling to Portland, Oregon to visit my awesome assssss friend who I miss soooo much. I hear great things about Portland all the time so I can't wait!
Then a couple of weeks after that trip I'm heading to Mexico City!! My other awesome asssss friend is going with me and we're going to paaaarty like it's Independance Day! Actually, we'll be there during Mexico's Independance celebrations. We'll visit a few historical sites, go to church , and hit up the hottest bars/clubs. I CAN'T WAIT!
Okay, I finally stopped bouncing off the walls after sharing this news with y'all.
Current mood:bouncy
Hi Ya'll! I'm so excited about the next couple of months I just had to share for whoever cares.
In a couple of weeks I will be traveling to Portland, Oregon to visit my awesome assssss friend who I miss soooo much. I hear great things about Portland all the time so I can't wait!
Then a couple of weeks after that trip I'm heading to Mexico City!! My other awesome asssss friend is going with me and we're going to paaaarty like it's Independance Day! Actually, we'll be there during Mexico's Independance celebrations. We'll visit a few historical sites, go to church , and hit up the hottest bars/clubs. I CAN'T WAIT!
Okay, I finally stopped bouncing off the walls after sharing this news with y'all.
Feeling a little lost...
Original Post Date: June 3, 2007 via MySpace
Current mood:melancholy
I freaking love this song! It describes a lot of what I've been feeling lately. This song is currently playing on my profile. Hope you like Katy. She has a very powerful voice. Check out her page on myspace.
"Lost" by Katy Perry
I'm out on my own again
Face down in the porcelain
Feeling so high, but looking so low
Party favors on the floor
Group of girls banging on the door
So many new fair weather friends
Oh, oh, oh
Have you ever been so lost?
Known the way, and still so lost?
Caught in the eye
of a hurricane
Slowly waiving goodbye
like a pageant parade
So sick of this town
pulling me down
Though mother says
I should come back home
But can't find the way
'cuz the way is gone
So if I pray
Am I just sending the words
into outer space?
Have you ever been so lost?
Know the way, still so lost?
Another night waiting for
Someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost?
Is there a light…
Is there a light at
the end of the road?
I'm pushing everyone away
'cuz I can't feel this anymore
Can't feel this anymore
Have you ever been so lost?
Know the way, and still so lost?
Another night waiting for
Someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost?
Have you ever been so lost?
*I'm actually listening to Katy Perry as I write this blog posting. Since myspace couldn't find her name when I searched for her, I posted Mazzy Star instead. I'll be listening to Mazzy Star in a minute anyway.
Current mood:melancholy
I freaking love this song! It describes a lot of what I've been feeling lately. This song is currently playing on my profile. Hope you like Katy. She has a very powerful voice. Check out her page on myspace.
"Lost" by Katy Perry
I'm out on my own again
Face down in the porcelain
Feeling so high, but looking so low
Party favors on the floor
Group of girls banging on the door
So many new fair weather friends
Oh, oh, oh
Have you ever been so lost?
Known the way, and still so lost?
Caught in the eye
of a hurricane
Slowly waiving goodbye
like a pageant parade
So sick of this town
pulling me down
Though mother says
I should come back home
But can't find the way
'cuz the way is gone
So if I pray
Am I just sending the words
into outer space?
Have you ever been so lost?
Know the way, still so lost?
Another night waiting for
Someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost?
Is there a light…
Is there a light at
the end of the road?
I'm pushing everyone away
'cuz I can't feel this anymore
Can't feel this anymore
Have you ever been so lost?
Know the way, and still so lost?
Another night waiting for
Someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost?
Have you ever been so lost?
*I'm actually listening to Katy Perry as I write this blog posting. Since myspace couldn't find her name when I searched for her, I posted Mazzy Star instead. I'll be listening to Mazzy Star in a minute anyway.
A Poem by Maya Angelou
Original Post Date: January 5, 2007 via MySpace
Current mood:grateful
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
~ Maya Angelou
Current mood:grateful
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
~ Maya Angelou
A long lost letter...
Original Post Date: November 8, 2006 via MySpace
Current mood:nostalgic
Not many of you know, but I keep EVERYTHING! Today I was cleaning out some drawers and I found a very special letter. I wrote this letter many years ago to a friend. I've written many letters to this person over the years and a lot of them were never sent out. This particular letter was one of those, only I regret not sending it. I do not talk to this person anymore, but it's sad to see how a great friendship can easily go downhill if it is not taken care of.
I'm posting the contents of this letter for many reasons. One of them is to hopefully deliver the message. Another one is in hopes that for the people who read this blog, it will inspire you guys to take extra care of the special people in your lives. Anyway, here's the letter.
Dear Friend,
This letter might come as a surprise to you. I just needed to tell you how I feel one last time. Our friendship use to be so open and easy to communicate. I had to give that memory its justice by writing this letter. It's taken me a while to get this far. You see, usually when I start thinking about you I never have a pen & paper handy. By the time I get a pen & paper my thoughts and feelings are all jumbled in my head, I've lost my nerve to write to you, and then my pride steps in and I convince myself to not write. But deep down inside I wanted to do this for quite some time.
I'll be honest and tell you that I've tried my best to be mad at you, to dislike you, and to forget about you. But I've failed. You see, I can't be mad at you for wanting to move on with your life without me. This is how life works.
"Some people come into our lives and quietly go,
Others stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts,
And we are never the same."
That is exactly what happened between us. I will never be the same young insecure girl I was before you entered my life. The footprints you left in my heart will be there forever along with all those cherished memories. Thank you for loving me back then, for making me believe in myself. Thank you for the confidence you helped me build. I will always love you for that.
Life has been pretty good to me. I've been blessed with great friends. Both old and new. Without them I would be a very lonely person. Thanks to all of their love, support and affection, my heart has no room for bad feelings.
May life give you the very best it has to offer.
Current mood:nostalgic
Not many of you know, but I keep EVERYTHING! Today I was cleaning out some drawers and I found a very special letter. I wrote this letter many years ago to a friend. I've written many letters to this person over the years and a lot of them were never sent out. This particular letter was one of those, only I regret not sending it. I do not talk to this person anymore, but it's sad to see how a great friendship can easily go downhill if it is not taken care of.
I'm posting the contents of this letter for many reasons. One of them is to hopefully deliver the message. Another one is in hopes that for the people who read this blog, it will inspire you guys to take extra care of the special people in your lives. Anyway, here's the letter.
Dear Friend,
This letter might come as a surprise to you. I just needed to tell you how I feel one last time. Our friendship use to be so open and easy to communicate. I had to give that memory its justice by writing this letter. It's taken me a while to get this far. You see, usually when I start thinking about you I never have a pen & paper handy. By the time I get a pen & paper my thoughts and feelings are all jumbled in my head, I've lost my nerve to write to you, and then my pride steps in and I convince myself to not write. But deep down inside I wanted to do this for quite some time.
I'll be honest and tell you that I've tried my best to be mad at you, to dislike you, and to forget about you. But I've failed. You see, I can't be mad at you for wanting to move on with your life without me. This is how life works.
"Some people come into our lives and quietly go,
Others stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts,
And we are never the same."
That is exactly what happened between us. I will never be the same young insecure girl I was before you entered my life. The footprints you left in my heart will be there forever along with all those cherished memories. Thank you for loving me back then, for making me believe in myself. Thank you for the confidence you helped me build. I will always love you for that.
Life has been pretty good to me. I've been blessed with great friends. Both old and new. Without them I would be a very lonely person. Thanks to all of their love, support and affection, my heart has no room for bad feelings.
May life give you the very best it has to offer.
Walkout
Original Post Date: October 22, 2006 via MySpace
Current mood:contemplative
Do you guys remember Halle Barry's speech when she won her Oscar for Best Actress? She thanked so many people for paving the way for her. She also said that winning that Oscar would open many doors for African Americans. I loved her speech, but I found it so hard to relate to.
I'm going to be completely honest with you guys. I absolutely know that I am a lucky person. I've never felt like I have been discriminated against because of my ethnic background or because of my looks. I've never felt like a door was closed to me because of this either. I would hear people discuss the Chicano Movement of the 1960's, but like most young adults, I would never pay much attention. It happened way before my time so why did I care? I've never thought highly of people who will do extreme things to get attention. I also never blamed society for my problems. In error I saw the Chicano Movement as the latinos blaming society for their misfortunes rather than working hard like the rest of us for a better life. Today I realized two things. One, just how EASY all of us have it. Two, just how wrong I was about the Chicano Movement AND how much I owe to the Movement for the "easy" life I now live.
I saw an HBO film called Walkout. The movie was produced by Edward James Olmos and HBO Films. It's a great movie and I feel that every latino should watch it. It's based on the true story of the East L.A. Walkouts in 1968. These students faced so much humiliation for just being latino. It would get worse if they were caught speaking spanish. This movie was like a splash of cold water in my face. If it weren't for those brave and proud latino students who knows how my public school years would have been. The walkouts took place not even ten years before I was born. My older sister's were born just 5 years later. I realized that these events weren't that long ago, yet we have come so far. Us Los Angeles latinos owe it all to those highschool students from Lincoln High, Roosevelt High, Garfield High, and Belmont High. You guys made such a huge impact that is still felt to this day.
I was so moved by the movie that I couldn't stop thinking about it. Halle Barry's speech came to mind. I finally knew what she was talking about when she thanked certain people for "paving her way". I'm not naive enough to think that the Movement is over. We have a long way to go, but thanks to those brave people of the 60's, we have a great start.
Current mood:contemplative
Do you guys remember Halle Barry's speech when she won her Oscar for Best Actress? She thanked so many people for paving the way for her. She also said that winning that Oscar would open many doors for African Americans. I loved her speech, but I found it so hard to relate to.
I'm going to be completely honest with you guys. I absolutely know that I am a lucky person. I've never felt like I have been discriminated against because of my ethnic background or because of my looks. I've never felt like a door was closed to me because of this either. I would hear people discuss the Chicano Movement of the 1960's, but like most young adults, I would never pay much attention. It happened way before my time so why did I care? I've never thought highly of people who will do extreme things to get attention. I also never blamed society for my problems. In error I saw the Chicano Movement as the latinos blaming society for their misfortunes rather than working hard like the rest of us for a better life. Today I realized two things. One, just how EASY all of us have it. Two, just how wrong I was about the Chicano Movement AND how much I owe to the Movement for the "easy" life I now live.
I saw an HBO film called Walkout. The movie was produced by Edward James Olmos and HBO Films. It's a great movie and I feel that every latino should watch it. It's based on the true story of the East L.A. Walkouts in 1968. These students faced so much humiliation for just being latino. It would get worse if they were caught speaking spanish. This movie was like a splash of cold water in my face. If it weren't for those brave and proud latino students who knows how my public school years would have been. The walkouts took place not even ten years before I was born. My older sister's were born just 5 years later. I realized that these events weren't that long ago, yet we have come so far. Us Los Angeles latinos owe it all to those highschool students from Lincoln High, Roosevelt High, Garfield High, and Belmont High. You guys made such a huge impact that is still felt to this day.
I was so moved by the movie that I couldn't stop thinking about it. Halle Barry's speech came to mind. I finally knew what she was talking about when she thanked certain people for "paving her way". I'm not naive enough to think that the Movement is over. We have a long way to go, but thanks to those brave people of the 60's, we have a great start.
L.A. High Class of '96 Reunion!
Original Post Date: October 2, 2006 via MySpace
Current mood:amused
A few of us decided to hang out on Sept. 30th. We figured this was the closest we would come to a 10 year Highschool reunion. Therefore we made it official.
L.A. High's C/O '96 10 yr Reunion!
Current mood:amused
A few of us decided to hang out on Sept. 30th. We figured this was the closest we would come to a 10 year Highschool reunion. Therefore we made it official.
L.A. High's C/O '96 10 yr Reunion!
Baby News Again!!!!!
Original Post Date: July 16, 2006 via MySpace
Current mood:ecstatic
No I'm not pregnant! Geez people! My baby niece was born though! Her name is Andrea Coronado. She weighs 6 pounds 2 ounces and is 18 inches long. The entire family is crazy about her!
Current mood:ecstatic
No I'm not pregnant! Geez people! My baby niece was born though! Her name is Andrea Coronado. She weighs 6 pounds 2 ounces and is 18 inches long. The entire family is crazy about her!
December Baby...
Original Post Date: June 24, 2006 via MySpace
Current mood:pleased
I think it's pretty close. What do you think?
---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music
Current mood:pleased
I think it's pretty close. What do you think?
---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music
My Three Little Birds...
How I love my three little birds...
...where would I be without them? In life whether things are going great or not so great, you will always need three little birds. I've always known I had these birds, but I just realized how scary life would be without them. I see this world as a cup half full rather than half empty because of them. Thank you Jesus/Allah/Budha for placing such wonderful souls in my life.
...where would I be without them? In life whether things are going great or not so great, you will always need three little birds. I've always known I had these birds, but I just realized how scary life would be without them. I see this world as a cup half full rather than half empty because of them. Thank you Jesus/Allah/Budha for placing such wonderful souls in my life.
Ay Amor Divino...
Original Post Date: April 10, 2006 via MySpace
Current mood:happy
Como te extrano mi amor porque sera
me falta todo en la vida si no estas
Como te extrano mi amor que puedo hacer
te extrano tanto que voy a enloquecer.
A veces pienso que tu nunca vendras
pero te quiero y te tengo que esperar
es el destino me lleva hasta el final
donde algun dia mi amor te encontrara
Ay amor divino
pronto tienes que volver
Como te extrano
me falta todo en la vida si no estas
Como te extrano
te extrano tanto que voy a enloquecer.
A veces pienso que tu nunca vendras
pero te quiero y te tengo que esperar
es el destino me lleva hasta el final
donde algun dia mi amor te encontrara
Ay amor divino
pronto tienes que volver
El dolor es fuerte lo soporto
porque vivo pensando en tu amor
quiero verte tenerte y besarte
y entregarte todo mi corazon.
Ay amor divino...
- Cafe Tacuba
Current mood:happy
Como te extrano mi amor porque sera
me falta todo en la vida si no estas
Como te extrano mi amor que puedo hacer
te extrano tanto que voy a enloquecer.
A veces pienso que tu nunca vendras
pero te quiero y te tengo que esperar
es el destino me lleva hasta el final
donde algun dia mi amor te encontrara
Ay amor divino
pronto tienes que volver
Como te extrano
me falta todo en la vida si no estas
Como te extrano
te extrano tanto que voy a enloquecer.
A veces pienso que tu nunca vendras
pero te quiero y te tengo que esperar
es el destino me lleva hasta el final
donde algun dia mi amor te encontrara
Ay amor divino
pronto tienes que volver
El dolor es fuerte lo soporto
porque vivo pensando en tu amor
quiero verte tenerte y besarte
y entregarte todo mi corazon.
Ay amor divino...
- Cafe Tacuba
Tag! I'm It!
Original Post: March 26, 2006 via MySpace
Current mood:calm
The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic, " six weird habits/things about ME," and people who get tagged need to write a blog about their six weird habits..things" as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.Don't forget to leave a comment that says, " You are tagged" in their myspace comments and tell them to read your blog.
#1 - I have a mini collection of Pez candy dispenser's. I really don't know why, but I do.
#2 - My closet is color coordinated. It's been this way for years but I'm thinking of changing it soon.
#3 - I have tons of food recipes. Trust me, this is weird for me. One day they will be used. One day...
#4 - I'm telepathetic!
#5 - My sister and I have the same birthday, only she's 4 years older than me. Not weird but cool fact.
#6 - Okay I've been staring at my computer for over 20 minutes trying to think of another weird fact about me. Fact is that I'm not as weird as some of you out there. I'm pretty normal. lol!
Current mood:calm
The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic, " six weird habits/things about ME," and people who get tagged need to write a blog about their six weird habits..things" as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.Don't forget to leave a comment that says, " You are tagged" in their myspace comments and tell them to read your blog.
#1 - I have a mini collection of Pez candy dispenser's. I really don't know why, but I do.
#2 - My closet is color coordinated. It's been this way for years but I'm thinking of changing it soon.
#3 - I have tons of food recipes. Trust me, this is weird for me. One day they will be used. One day...
#4 - I'm telepathetic!
#5 - My sister and I have the same birthday, only she's 4 years older than me. Not weird but cool fact.
#6 - Okay I've been staring at my computer for over 20 minutes trying to think of another weird fact about me. Fact is that I'm not as weird as some of you out there. I'm pretty normal. lol!
The New Year Spell
Original Post Date: January 16, 2006 via MySpace
Current mood:hopeful
This was written by Jena Campion. I loved it and had to post it on my blog too. Enjoy....
i can't wait to see what 2006 has in store for me? i wonder where i will go? who i will meet? what i will do? all those who wish me love, peace, and happiness are welcomed in my life with open arms and an open heart. all those who wish me harm, run. i'll give you a 30 second head start. but now's your only chance, run. some might leave my life, some new people will join my life. if you are to go, go with love. no anger or hatred. go be a success in life and i shall see you once again. and some from my past will be making a cameo appearance. to them, hello again. let's finish our karma, good or bad. and may i follow my path, may i be in the right place at the right time so my destiny will find me. where ever that path shall lead...let's go. - Jena Campion
Current mood:hopeful
This was written by Jena Campion. I loved it and had to post it on my blog too. Enjoy....
i can't wait to see what 2006 has in store for me? i wonder where i will go? who i will meet? what i will do? all those who wish me love, peace, and happiness are welcomed in my life with open arms and an open heart. all those who wish me harm, run. i'll give you a 30 second head start. but now's your only chance, run. some might leave my life, some new people will join my life. if you are to go, go with love. no anger or hatred. go be a success in life and i shall see you once again. and some from my past will be making a cameo appearance. to them, hello again. let's finish our karma, good or bad. and may i follow my path, may i be in the right place at the right time so my destiny will find me. where ever that path shall lead...let's go. - Jena Campion
Baby News!!!
Original Post Date: November 27, 2005 via MySpace
Current mood:excited
No I am not pregnant. But my sister MJ is!!! Yaaaay! She just found out yesterday and I was the first person she broke the news to. We are all very excited and happy about future baby Coronado. MJ has her first doctor's appt. tomorrow and will be finding out how far along she is. I can't wait to see her belly grow as my future niece/nephew grows inside of her. Yaaaay! Time to go shopping for baby clothes!
xoxo.....Princesa Sandra
Current mood:excited
No I am not pregnant. But my sister MJ is!!! Yaaaay! She just found out yesterday and I was the first person she broke the news to. We are all very excited and happy about future baby Coronado. MJ has her first doctor's appt. tomorrow and will be finding out how far along she is. I can't wait to see her belly grow as my future niece/nephew grows inside of her. Yaaaay! Time to go shopping for baby clothes!
xoxo.....Princesa Sandra
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