"We're going to do it before our duet."

Lol... I'm really liking Glee. ;-)

Life As I Knew It

It's been over 9 months since my life at work changed. There have been ups and downs but "at least I have a job". Yeah, I have to remind myself of that every now and then.

I'm not happy anymore. I don't enjoy what I do and I have no clear picture of what road I want to take. I've been going with the flow of things but haven't been motivated for much. I've thought about what could change to make me happy again and my brain is taking me places where I never thought it would. Silly me even considered politics as an option! Wow, desperate times call for desperate thinking. lol....

I miss being excited about work. I miss learning to grow. I can't even provide that for my own employees. I can teach them all I know but can't get them the promotions they deserve.

I do find comfort in my office. I love my boss, my employees, and even some of my clients. I love living so close to work with only a 10 minute commute to worry about. This for now is providing some happiness.

The other thing providing me happiness is my apartment. I love it. One day I got home from work and thought about how happy I am in it. I had the sudden urge to hug my apartment. I wanted my arms to stretch so I could wrap them around my home to give it a tight hug, almost not wanting to let go.

My mom finally has her own apartment. She's busy furnishing it and I hope once she's done she'll love her place as much as I love mine.

2010 has been a shaky year for everyone I know. It's been a year of highs and lows, ups and downs, ying and yangs, etc. I sometimes think I miss the time when a year was all good and then the following year was kind of bad. What would get me through the bad year was looking forward to the good year that was inevitably next. Seeing a clear differnce between the good and bad years has become more difficult as I've gotten older. I am now realizing that every year will have its share of ups and downs, highs and lows, ying and yangs, yada yada yada yada.

So when you're in the middle of your high, enjoy it to the fullest because the low isn't too far and you have to remember how good the high felt.

When you're in the middle of your low, you have to look deep within yourself and find that glimmer of light at the end of tunnel. You tell yourself that the low will not last because another high is not too far.

Some people call this being positive. I call it survival. This is what gets me through life's rollercoaster. Otherwise I would just go nuts and self destruct.

Xoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.............. Princess Sandra

The Death of My 80 Yr Old Friend

My friend died on Friday. He was 80 yrs old but I knew him for his last 12. I knew he was sick but I truly hoped that he would get better & live for many more years.

I've been in shock since I found out. Almost numb but I think I'm finally going through the mourning process. I've told my friends about my loss. They're all sympathetic and allowed me to vent but some have either not thought it important enough to ask or have told me not to worry that i'll be okay. To those few I say... Duh! Really? I'll be okay? I thought my life was over. Thanks for letting me know i'll be okay! Grrrr...

Sorry, I needed to let that out. I have to say that the majority of my friends have been awesome & just listened. I'm especially loving my friend Cristian who was just as upset as me. Our phone conversation was just what I needed. I wish I could have reached through the phone and hugged him.

Anyhow, I'm very sad my friend is gone. My life will definitely change with this loss but I have to look ahead and move on.

I will miss you First Fed.

Not feeling very inspired today but I just wanted to post something since its been a really long time from my last post. Anywho...

It's the holidays y'all! Can't wait for turkey day... but for some reason I'm feeling blue. Hmmm... I think I need to immerse myself in holiday planning, listen to holiday music, and visit family. I really want to visit my family in Fresno but I haven't had a chance to drive up there. I LOVE my cousins from Fresno. This pic is of Claudia & Vero. <3333>

I also feel a need for a getaway. I've been thinking a lot about Maui lately. I really miss going there. I think its been 3 or 4 years since I last visited. Looooong time to be away from such a beautiful place. This pic was taken on my last trip to Maui. I had soooo much fun! I was there with some of my closest friends.... Alice, Jon, & Yaz. >

Alice asked if I was going with them to Maui in April 2010. Although I would love to I have other expenses right now. :-(

I really want to go to Mexico City in September with my friends. Mexico will be celebrating 200 years of Independence and I have to be a part of that celebration. I told Cristian and Gabriel about it and they want to go too. I need to see who else is interested in going because I cannot go alone with the guys. Hahaha... no way Jose. :-) They'll be busy with the Mexican female population while I'll want to do the touristy thing. I last visited Mexico City about 2 years ago. I went with my friend and we had a blast. I've been longing to return every since...

This pic was taken at Teotihuacan. An ancient Olmec city minutes from Mexico City. It was AMAZING!!!

Another trip I have to plan is my first visit to Europe. Yaz and I have been wanting to visit Spain. When Yaz comes to L.A. for Thanksgiving week we are going to get together and plan our trip. We are also going to start saving for it because we will need all the pennies we can get. Haha!

Hey, let me not forget that I will be visiting the beautiful city of Portland next month! I will be up there hanging with my amigos Yaz and Jon. I can't wait!!! I haven't visited Portland in over 2 years and I'm overdue.

So you see, I just love traveling. I just need a job that will pay for all my trips or figure out a way to win the darn lotto. ;-)

Okay.... I guess I've written enough for today. Need to go be productive.

Buh-bye!

Drama

Drama. Oh how I hate it yet sometimes miss it. I miss the initial excitement that comes with it but overall I hate it.
So I just confirmed that a friend has a thing with a friend. I had a suspicion recently and asked one of my friends but they flatly denied it. After the initial excitement of discovering the truth wore off I got a little angry. Now I don't need to know details of whatever is going on but why wouldn't they tell me?? I almost feel like a fool.
I'm more upset at the the girl than the guy. I talk to the girl more and once asked her about them. She totally denied it all & I believed her. I always thought it was weird that she would get jeolous when he would call me.
Today they got mad at each other & I was stuck in the middle. That's what upsets me.
WHATEVER!!! I hate drama.

Mexican Sisters

Oh how I love the Mexican Sisters! They're funny, lovable, and cook amazing. I'm talking about my mother's sisters. Two of them are in town for a long weekend and I love it. How can I explain the joy in my house right now?

Yesterday my mom took care of my nephew but it was great seeing her sister's help with feeding, playing, and cuddling. All three grandmothers taking care of a one year old. Priceless!

Taking care of my nephew didn't stop them from their real mission of cooking as much as possible in the shortest amount of time. Last night the sisters baked mexican bread and mexican cookies called coricos. Today the sisters are making tamales. They've been up since the crack of dawn working on this process. It's a tamale assembly line! haha! But seriously, I love this. They have been working hard and talking about everything and anything. I guess this is my small glimpse of their life back in the days at "el rancho". (from left to right: Tia Marie, Tia Jacinta, and my mom)

I abosolutely love these ladies! They still fight like they're teens, laugh like their teens, and enjoy each other like only sisters can. So today it is my duty to spend the day with them and drive them wherever they want to go. I am happy to oblige! Stay tuned for more info on the Mexican Sisters cooking, laughing, and fighting. ;-p

Here's my mom with her other sisters some months ago. From left to right: My mom, Tia Chaga, and Tia Tiana. <3

P.S. To all my friends: I now see that being a smart ass runs way back in my family. haha!

xoxo... Princess Sandra

I Hate My Job

I HATE MY JOB.